UMMM what do you think?

Sometimes I wonder why I am the way I am ! The fact of the matter is that I am constantly changing hopefully into something way better than before. The lack of understanding of who I am to become is quite natural if I were to see the pain and heartache in the future it won't happen the way its supposed to! God knows this, but sometimes as human beings we constantly think if only I had a time machine I could make things better,but no you can't! I believe that God is the only one capable of changing time and yes sometimes people get second chances. Life doesen't always seem fair, but sitting around crying about what we can't change isn't gonna get us anywhere. I try not to comprehend and think too much on things that have happened that simply just don't make any sense to me. The fact of the matter is that God has provided me with understanding! Yes, the creator of our universe has let me know that sometimes things are simply meant to be left up to him. I am perfectly content with the fact that not everything is gonna be perfect for me twenty-four/seven. I wish everyone else understood that. For me I must have a sense of purpose and direction in my life and Im starting to finally get that. Hopefully no more wandering aimlessly for me. One could only hope right! Funny how I trust in something so great and powerful and sometimes beyond my comprehension. Well atleast I have something to base it off of there are beautiful things all around me that I simply know that no mere mortal man on his best day could have possibly created! Wonder what Darwin or whatever his name would think of that! I have a really dificult time dumbing myself down and even trying to think for a second that I could have came from a fish or a monkey! Wow thats out there! So what you"re saying is that I was once a fish and evolved into something that doesen't rely simply on instinct, but has intelligence oh yeah and now that Ive evolved I can drown! Hmmm............. what people come up with! Just lets me know even more that Im not supposed to understand everything! It's like that secret family recipe handed down from generation to generation! Do you honestly think that God's gonna give you all the answers? If the Bush's baked beans people aren't giving up there secrets what makes you think that you are so great that God is gonna give you complete understanding of everything. I guess what Im trying to say is I know that things happen for a reason. Maybe not figuring them out and actually being kept in the dark is a good thing! I don't really think anyone would know what to do with the answers anyway! I could imagine the conversation between a person and God: So you mean because I did that this happened! Nooo Waaay! Wow! I am simply baffeled! I just don't get it your gonna have to explain it to me one more time God! LOL!